A Very Difficult night!!!!

Wow!! The last 36 hours have been an adventure and not one I would like to repeat. eli was doing fairly well off the vent with the help of a cpap (a little extra oxygen). However, we had trouble getting the mask to not have leaks, but that was only a small problem. his oxygen levels were staying in the mid 80's and he had begun to rest a little. The dr.'s were trying really hard not to re-intubate. They were giving him nebulizer treatments, bd's (percussion on his back) and they were helping a tiny bit each time. Last night around 12 p.m. he was getting his bd's and I took a bathroom break. When I returned I found his heartrate at 47 and his o2 sats at 30% then the nurse pushed the code blue button. Of course, another thing you never want to experience with your child. He was a light blue color and needed heart compression but only for about a minute, which seemed like an eternity. Once his oxygen levels were back to the 90's he started to raise his heartrate some but required re-intubation. This is a set back for him and really concerns us about his ability to remain off the ventilator. He is more stable now since he is intubated but this is ultimately not the best thing for him, obviously. He will receive an ENT consult today since they are concerned about not being able to pass anything in his right nostril. Of course, they say his anatomy is different....boy we have heard that several times.

I felt like my heart was begin ripped out when I saw him laying on that bed and everyone around him working hard to keep him alive. A code blue is the scariest thing i have ever seen and it multiplies by a million when it is your child. last night was the first night I let myself break down in the last several weeks, but i really needed a good crying out to the Lord. I can assure that is the only thing that can make you feel the least bit better in this situation. Ryan and I know for sure that God is in control and has an ultimate plan just getting there is very very difficult. Please pray that we continue to have strength to get through each new day. We gave Elijah completely over to the Lord no matter what will happen good or bad. So we pray for strength to let him work in our lives the way he sees fit and not on our plan or schedule. And we all know that can be hard at times since we sometimes think our schedule is better and it is definately not. We still ask that you pray for a speedy recovery, which definately includes having him off the ventilator. Thanks for all your prayers and during this big bump in the road we really need it.

Ryan just called from the hospital and said that he will see an ENT on Monday. He also will have a few more antibiotics started since he had some infection show in his lungs from a culture this morning. Please pray this is just a minor infection and does not lead to pneumonia.

We love you all,

The Frazier 5